We never get over the loss of a loved one but there will come the time when your grieving becomes different. You will as time goes by have more “Good Days” for periods of time and then there will be something that triggers the reminder that your loved one is not on earth anymore bringing tears and that heart wound alive once again remembering that moment in your life when it arrived. You then find yourself having to “walk through that pain” once again sometimes it is more intense others, a bittersweet longing, loving… and uncontrollable tears.
Just breathe deep,exhale, allow them to flow push through those seconds, minutes and hours until you once again put on a more comfortable face
Let Your Tears Fall….
There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are the messengers of overwhelming grief, of deep contrition, and of unspeakable love.
Do not hold them in..let them fall like a wild storm at sea.., until one day you will find..they have become a peaceful sacred pool of only love…and your beloved ever so near..
“It’s May & the Lilacs are Blooming”
Elaina Deva Proffitt
“The month when life ended and began anew. A time when after months of agonizing pain,at last I could not fight to live anymore, feeling like I was hanging on to what is called “life,” as if my hand was holding the string of a balloon floating higher and higher away from this world.. becoming light as a feather heading towards the Unknown. I knew it was just a matter of a few days when that last conscious moment upon earth would arrive bringing the end of my life at last. My weakened emaciated body could not take any more. Waiting for them to take me into the operating room there was a Sacred “presence” in my room that gave me comfort. I made peace with my God asking forgiveness for any trespasses should I have made, drifting in and out of consciousness I began sending prayers to my loved ones, my son that he be blessed and know he is loved so much. ..My prayers a continuous whisper as I was wheeled through that last door into the room.
Now, Laying upon the table in the operating room I knew this was the last stop. -I had to get prepared now for the unknown-I can only tell you it was like trying to talk yourself into jumping off a high cliff-diving board-The beeps of the heart monitors whispered to get ready to go..A shimmer of light was in the room as I felt the sedatives start to run through me..the faces of my family loved one flying in front of me..sending them love and a last goodbye..countdown was arriving..feeling it was the last ticket to ride there was no other way to go but into that black velvet that was taking me…As a child when afraid.. asking Jesus to help me..now feeling lite as a feather with each last conscious breath.whispering ..”Now I lay me down to sleep I pray the Lord my Soul to Keep..if I should die”…… descending into darkness…into a light
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“It’s May and the Lilacs are Blooming” Journey to the Other Side” 2007 ©
Elaina Deva Proffitt..
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